Tuesday, April 14, 2009

The feeling of blah.

That is how you describe me. Blah. That's how I look. Its definitely how I feel and the reaction most people have to me in general. I just wish I knew WHY I always feel so Blah.
I think a big part of it is watching the world around me. People who work their asses off never catch a break and end up in the proverbial hole. People are lazy and refuse to work sit around collecting handouts and free money. Where is my share? Hell I would love to go back to school but can't afford it and don't qualify for a grant. Jake and I have a friend whose career is going to school. She has two kids and goes to school full time. Taxpayers provide her with an apartment and pay her tuition. On top of that she has extra money left out of her grant each semester to buy some new clothes to strut around campus in. I haven't bought new clothes in over a year, and even then it was a $5 polo shirt to wear to work. Splurged about a month ago and bought a new pair of sneakers to replace the ones with holes in them and the pair that kills my feet.
Then there's the folks who don't do a thing. No job, no school and STILL get shit handed to them. 3 kids by different men apparently qualifies you for free food, free health insurance and free rent if you want it.
A few years ago, Jake and I decided to try a fresh start. We moved to Sebring. Jake's hometown, in Florida. Cheap land, cheap housing and lower sales tax (including a tax exemption on groceries) sounded nice. Within a few days we each had jobs and had rented a duplex. It was small, but cozy and efficient. We loved it! After about three weeks shit fell apart and Jake's job was no more. Staring down the nose of a car payment and rent we went to see about getting on food stamps temporarily. They said no. Even though we were paying for the car (or at least trying to) they said it was an asset and its value made us too "rich" to qualify for help. I guess we were supposed to eat the car.
Anyway... yeah I get a little pissy when I see people getting along nice and easy on their goverment aid while I sit here trying to figure out how to pay my electric bill and still have enough money to eat.

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